maandag 6 april 2009

the final bow

Walk in Silence

"People like you find it easy,
Naked to see,
Walking on air.
Hunting by the rivers,
Through the streets,
Every corner abandoned too soon,
Set down with due care.
Dont walk away in silence"


Where were you when you sat there in the rain with me, body to body to gain heat, holding an umbrella above our heads? The romantic set up was like something out of a movie, so perfect and almost too cliche for it's own good. Our legs shaking from the cold or from the music, hands in my pockets, whispering and looking away, my eyes are open, but instead of gazing at you I look up to see the black night taking a hold of me, tightening it's grip firmer within minutes. In an imprisoned state all I could see was the lights of the black and white movie screen, the occasional couple in front of us showing affection, the projected love story heading for disaster, and next to me a fine-looking prankster without a clue. We were complete strangers trying to be comfortable with each other, friends as you will. I have never felt so invisible. If only you could have seen inside of me. We listened to Joy Division songs, shared a few drinks and laughs, all the while watching Sam Riley as Ian C. going through the exact same heart ache as I was going through. I wanted to shake you and scream; Love is tearing me apart, too. The night was terribly cold for August, and the rain kept falling, as I was falling. Why couldn't you see, why didn't I say something? The end credits rolled in, the final song "Atmosphere". Where were you when the music was telling you exactly what i was thinking?

"Walk in silence, Don't walk away, in silence." - Joy Division